How many more times do I blow my nose and I didn’t sleep last night so I fell asleep at eleven am and slept until three now sitting here I’m afraid I will start choking while laying in bed and what if it thunders? I want to hear the first thunder of twenty twelve. I should really read a book. I checked the home phone today because it hasn’t rang for a long time. It is fine. Just no one calls. Watched a horrid short film called Hole in the Paper Sky I bawled complicating my stuffy nose and runny nose. It’s a dark and stormy night. I love it. Raining windy. Pip barked and growled at something our the front window I looked and saw nothing. May have been the raccoon checking for Meow Mix. I miss my mom. I haven’t visited her because I am sick and shouldn’t spread these things to the world. My sig other visited her and things were depressingly disgusting. More phone calls and sadness.

There were signs I kept ignoring. Maybe if I ignored enough it would go away. I had a sore throat. I felt the creep of a tickle behind my wisdom teeth and slithering towards my ear. I couldn’t hold back my cough. I realized I have the cold all my nieces had and most likely passed on to me.